Tuesday, January 13, 2009
letsstopthingsorstartfromscratch.
am i that weak? perhaps i am too weak that i couldn't even win over my emotions. i hate it. will it always be me who'll end up a LOSER? why the hell couldn't i accept the fact that the person i could love for the rest of his, rather, my life could not even change for me? after taking good care of his heart while mine was slowly losing its beat, i still am the one who's supposed to give. i still could not believe that some things will not be the way i want them to be. and that's a big bull.
is it too demanding of me to ask him to talk to me when we're together / on our way to somewhere? just a word or two. i know the day's stressful but is it that hard to utter even just a hi or hello? it's always like that, and i cannot comprehend. i don't know if it's me who has to adjust for the nth time or whatev. and just because of that darn fucking simple reason, everything's been ruined.
pointless.
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10:21 PM